Please Call
This week I woke up to discover that my vision is not working as it should. I’m scared. The doc that I saw said that no, I wasn’t going blind. The doc that I saw in October of 2024 told me then that I’d maxed out what anyone could do for me as a low-vision person. New glasses won’t help. So, this coming week I’ll talk to my regular ophthalmologist, and I’ll ask her if there is anything that they can do to help me read print better. I’m typing this in 24 dpi (dots per inch). If I need to read aloud, it has to go to 36 dpi.
The above being said, I don’t like to read to others. I read slowly, and things don’t always turn out right. I have gained confidence in my public reading, but since I can’t read at my talking speed, it is something I don’t do well.
I’m scared, and it can be heard in my voice. The thought of not being able to use the sight I do have is beyond words to express. Ever since the docs put glasses on me, the work has been mine. Now, I’m feeling it all! Now, I’m beginning to look at Amsler grids. The lines aren’t wavy… and yet, something is terribly wrong. PXE and being born with cataracts, are not a good combination, and I’m the one who must cope with it.
So, I ask again: Am I going blind? I guess I’ll need to talk with the doc, and most likely get there to see her ASAP. What is going on? I’m widowed; I’m alone, and I wasn’t ready for this to happen, and yet, something is happening.
Our stories of searching for answers have their own path, and this time the adventure is not one of excitement but one of great uncertainty. Sight is something those of us who have it are thankful for—we should be. When it changes, it is traumatic, and it is needful that we find safe paths through the process.
While I was at the Visio’s Loo Erf, I observed many residents with their own adjustment issues. Most people had the need of a good therapist, and there weren’t enough to go around.
I have sat at this machine with eyes that sting. The art of adjustment is to understand when to stop working and step away. When I start work today, I’ll be dealing with seven client hours, and mails. Most things are time critical. Balance is what makes it work. Stinging eyes will be on my list to prevent. The trick is to schedule things.
As of right now, no call from the doc. Does she really understand that until I have answers, even an “I don’t know” and “We can try this” is better than sitting with what I’m sitting with now? Please, call!
